The lord has given, the Lord has taken away.

“he’s not home”
“do you know where he went?”
“to herd none of his sheep”

You weren´t crying about mother.
Were crying because can't get your shadow to stick on.
Anyway, you weren´t crying.
(Peter Pan, Act 1)

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

It will only be real and intense when it detaches from the stalk and its essence dries.

returning to the garden in the evening
shouting ready or not
and waiting twenty years to say
olly olly oxen free

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

Use lipstick

to make people like you

“Where does this blooming come from?”

From time.

“No. From your need to relive what you don’t even remember”.

You pay them in memory, unstable currency of each and every day.

[it’s real when they say it]

You longed to be like her, whinnying in the storm, swimming the seas of the continent.

Alone
amid marble steps
You shiver in the living room
and assume the irreversible:

“No one’s going to find you here if you don’t make noise, not even the one you make when you suck in your boogers.”

You weren´t crying about mother.
Were crying because can't get your shadow to stick on.
Anyway, you weren´t crying.
(Peter Pan, Act 1)

returning to the garden in the evening
shouting ready or not
and waiting twenty years to say
olly olly oxen free

The lord has given, the Lord has taken away.

It will only be real and intense when it detaches from the stalk and its essence dries.

“he’s not home”
“do you know where he went?”
“to herd none of his sheep”

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

You pay them in memory, unstable currency of each and every day.

[it’s real when they say it]

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

Use lipstick

to make people like you

“Where does this blooming come from?”

From time.

“No. From your need to relive what you don’t even remember”.

You longed to be like her, whinnying in the storm, swimming the seas of the continent.

Alone
amid marble steps
You shiver in the living room
and assume the irreversible:

Arid on his crown, he picks up the brush with his guitar fingers. Blue now, the mane keeps growing, or could it be the skin drying out?

“No one’s going to find you here if you don’t make noise, not even the one you make when you suck in your boogers.”

from the same arm of the scales
You satiate childhood with fables of fountains

but what if she comes one day and you’re gone?

I don’t give
I ask him
like the lord

who has taken away
the lord has taken away

One moment of silence.

Recently you saw a wild plant growing on her grave.

It couldn’t be found because he took it with him.

You weren´t crying about mother.
Were crying because can't get your shadow to stick on.
Anyway, you weren´t crying.
(Peter Pan, Act 1)

returning to the garden in the evening
shouting ready or not
and waiting twenty years to say
olly olly oxen free

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

The lord has given, the Lord has taken away.

It will only be real and intense when it detaches from the stalk and its essence dries.

You pay them in memory, unstable currency of each and every day.

[it’s real when they say it]

Use lipstick

to make people like you

Arid on his crown, he picks up the brush with his guitar fingers. Blue now, the mane keeps growing, or could it be the skin drying out?

from the same arm of the scales
You satiate childhood with fables of fountains

I don’t give
I ask him
like the lord

who has taken away
the lord has taken away

“he’s not home”
“do you know where he went?”
“to herd none of his sheep”

You longed to be like her, whinnying in the storm, swimming the seas of the continent.

Alone
amid marble steps
You shiver in the living room
and assume the irreversible:

“No one’s going to find you here if you don’t make noise, not even the one you make when you suck in your boogers.”

It couldn’t be found because he took it with him.

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

but what if she comes one day and you’re gone?

One moment of silence.

Recently you saw a wild plant growing on her grave.

returning to the garden in the evening
shouting ready or not
and waiting twenty years to say
olly olly oxen free

You weren´t crying about mother.
Were crying because can't get your shadow to stick on.
Anyway, you weren´t crying.
(Peter Pan, Act 1)

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

The lord has given, the Lord has taken away.

It will only be real and intense when it detaches from the stalk and its essence dries.

Use lipstick

to make people like you

You pay them in memory, unstable currency of each and every day.

You longed to be like her, whinnying in the storm, swimming the seas of the continent.

Alone
amid marble steps
You shiver in the living room
and assume the irreversible:

“he’s not home”
“do you know where he went?”
“to herd none of his sheep”

returning to the garden in the evening
shouting ready or not
and waiting twenty years to say
olly olly oxen free

You weren´t crying about mother.
Were crying because can't get your shadow to stick on.
Anyway, you weren´t crying.
(Peter Pan, Act 1)

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

The lord has given, the Lord has taken away.

It will only be real and intense when it detaches from the stalk and its essence dries.

You pay them in memory, unstable currency of each and every day.

[it’s real when they say it]

“he’s not home”
“do you know where he went?”
“to herd none of his sheep”

Arid on his crown, he picks up the brush with his guitar fingers. Blue now, the mane keeps growing, or could it be the skin drying out?

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

Use lipstick

to make people like you

from the same arm of the scales
You satiate childhood with fables of fountains

You weren´t crying about mother.
Were crying because can't get your shadow to stick on.
Anyway, you weren´t crying.
(Peter Pan, Act 1)

The lord has given, the Lord has taken away.

“he’s not home”
“do you know where he went?”
“to herd none of his sheep”

It will only be real and intense when it detaches from the stalk and its essence dries.

Use lipstick

to make people like you

returning to the garden in the evening
shouting ready or not
and waiting twenty years to say
olly olly oxen free

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

You pay them in memory, unstable currency of each and every day.

You longed to be like her, whinnying in the storm, swimming the seas of the continent.

[it’s real when they say it]

Arid on his crown, he picks up the brush with his guitar fingers. Blue now, the mane keeps growing, or could it be the skin drying out?

from the same arm of the scales
You satiate childhood with fables of fountains

Alone
amid marble steps
You shiver in the living room
and assume the irreversible:

Sara Camhaji

visualize the voice of thought.
think the image of the voice.
provoke destiny. play.
from chance, from the sigh.
understand the force that links
the image to the name.
the name is an image.
the image is a verb.
play. nothing is chance.
destiny is a game.
everything is destiny.

This site is part of the project "DON´T TAKE PHOTOS OF THE LANDSCAPE; TAKE PORTRAITS WITH THE VIEW OF THE BACKGROUND IF YOU LIKE", whose creative object revolves around the phenomenon of memory and its conceptual visualization. Thus, Sara explores the different languages on which the mind reloads its truth and the way it constructs our inner world.
About
SARA CAMHAJI (Mexico City, 1986) is a writer, teacher, and mother. Her work is a natural response to her lived experience and the emotional dimensions she has inhabited. She has told and written stories for her entire life. Poetry—the axis of her exploration—has prompted her to develop new discursive forms in close contact with inner human reality; wrenching, they open themselves to embodiment and appropriation. She has a master’s in creative writing, two children, and two published works: Maleza (Alboroto Ediciones, 2022) and this one. A selection of her poems appeared in the UNAM’s Periódico de Poesía. She received a grant from Asylum Arts in 2017 and was awarded the Peleh Fund arts residency in Berkeley, California, for 2023. Narrated poetry or poetic narrative? Sara writes in the voice of an archive with a voice of its own, like a thinking time machine, or from the dark sincerity of she-who-didn’t-know-she-had-to-live.
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