“Where does this blooming come from?”

From time.

“No. From your need to relive what you don’t even remember”.

Use lipstick

to make people like you

it’s not a game. It’s the last time he’ll let us in late.

“No one’s going to find you here if you don’t make noise, not even the one you make when you suck in your boogers.”

“And how, from there, from that edge, that muffled yell, that tumbled childhood, can a kingdom spread?”

CHILDHOOD IS HAD IN THE PRESENT,

in the preterite

OF WHAT DOESN’T HAPPEN.

Here when? Between walls of sound. Who now? Not wondering. That, there. Soon. You're not.

Horses
bulls and horses
the slaying lance.

Spread out the umbilical skein. Seek the hollow in a needle’s head. Do you want me to sew it on for you? Stretch feet out on the bed. Sew it on to keep me company in the light, because I don’t need it in the dark. Sew up this unraveled sack for good. Exactly what it´s needed to play.

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

They know nothing of the living.

It couldn’t be found because he took it with him.

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

It will only be real and intense when it detaches from the stalk and its essence dries.

it’s not a game. It’s the last time he’ll let us in late.

CHILDHOOD IS HAD IN THE PRESENT,

in the preterite

OF WHAT DOESN’T HAPPEN.

“Where does this blooming come from?”

From time.

“No. From your need to relive what you don’t even remember”.

“And how, from there, from that edge, that muffled yell, that tumbled childhood, can a kingdom spread?”

Use lipstick

to make people like you

Here when? Between walls of sound. Who now? Not wondering. That, there. Soon. You're not.

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

They know nothing of the living.

“No one’s going to find you here if you don’t make noise, not even the one you make when you suck in your boogers.”

Horses
bulls and horses
the slaying lance.

Spread out the umbilical skein. Seek the hollow in a needle’s head. Do you want me to sew it on for you? Stretch feet out on the bed. Sew it on to keep me company in the light, because I don’t need it in the dark. Sew up this unraveled sack for good. Exactly what it´s needed to play.

It couldn’t be found because he took it with him.

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

Arid on his crown, he picks up the brush with his guitar fingers. Blue now, the mane keeps growing, or could it be the skin drying out?

It will only be real and intense when it detaches from the stalk and its essence dries.

You find laps that sheltered you and the same bosoms nursed you, although he eats from the dish of lentils and what must be eaten unsalted.

Will you get married?
Yes
When?
Soon
To who?
Me
Who are you?
Papa

You pay them in memory, unstable currency of each and every day.

She confessed that she was your real mother, but she was so young that she surrendered you for her older sister to raise. In her account, at least your father was the same.

an underground city
a walled-in heart
a bronze-domed stage

The lord has given, the Lord has taken away.

it’s not a game. It’s the last time he’ll let us in late.

CHILDHOOD IS HAD IN THE PRESENT,

in the preterite

OF WHAT DOESN’T HAPPEN.

Here when? Between walls of sound. Who now? Not wondering. That, there. Soon. You're not.

“Where does this blooming come from?”

From time.

“No. From your need to relive what you don’t even remember”.

“And how, from there, from that edge, that muffled yell, that tumbled childhood, can a kingdom spread?”

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

They know nothing of the living.

Horses
bulls and horses
the slaying lance.

Arid on his crown, he picks up the brush with his guitar fingers. Blue now, the mane keeps growing, or could it be the skin drying out?

You find laps that sheltered you and the same bosoms nursed you, although he eats from the dish of lentils and what must be eaten unsalted.

You pay them in memory, unstable currency of each and every day.

Use lipstick

to make people like you

It couldn’t be found because he took it with him.

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

It will only be real and intense when it detaches from the stalk and its essence dries.

The lord has given, the Lord has taken away.

“No one’s going to find you here if you don’t make noise, not even the one you make when you suck in your boogers.”

Will you get married?
Yes
When?
Soon
To who?
Me
Who are you?
Papa

She confessed that she was your real mother, but she was so young that she surrendered you for her older sister to raise. In her account, at least your father was the same.

an underground city
a walled-in heart
a bronze-domed stage

CHILDHOOD IS HAD IN THE PRESENT,

in the preterite

OF WHAT DOESN’T HAPPEN.

it’s not a game. It’s the last time he’ll let us in late.

Here when? Between walls of sound. Who now? Not wondering. That, there. Soon. You're not.

“Where does this blooming come from?”

From time.

“No. From your need to relive what you don’t even remember”.

“And how, from there, from that edge, that muffled yell, that tumbled childhood, can a kingdom spread?”

Horses
bulls and horses
the slaying lance.

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

It couldn’t be found because he took it with him.

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

Use lipstick

to make people like you

CHILDHOOD IS HAD IN THE PRESENT,

in the preterite

OF WHAT DOESN’T HAPPEN.

it’s not a game. It’s the last time he’ll let us in late.

Here when? Between walls of sound. Who now? Not wondering. That, there. Soon. You're not.

“Where does this blooming come from?”

From time.

“No. From your need to relive what you don’t even remember”.

“And how, from there, from that edge, that muffled yell, that tumbled childhood, can a kingdom spread?”

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

They know nothing of the living.

Use lipstick

to make people like you

Arid on his crown, he picks up the brush with his guitar fingers. Blue now, the mane keeps growing, or could it be the skin drying out?

“No one’s going to find you here if you don’t make noise, not even the one you make when you suck in your boogers.”

Horses
bulls and horses
the slaying lance.

You find laps that sheltered you and the same bosoms nursed you, although he eats from the dish of lentils and what must be eaten unsalted.

it’s not a game. It’s the last time he’ll let us in late.

“Where does this blooming come from?”

From time.

“No. From your need to relive what you don’t even remember”.

Use lipstick

to make people like you

“And how, from there, from that edge, that muffled yell, that tumbled childhood, can a kingdom spread?”

Horses
bulls and horses
the slaying lance.

CHILDHOOD IS HAD IN THE PRESENT,

in the preterite

OF WHAT DOESN’T HAPPEN.

Here when? Between walls of sound. Who now? Not wondering. That, there. Soon. You're not.

CHILDHOOD ISN’T SOMETHING YOU CAN HAVE.

although

YOU CAN LOSE IT

It couldn’t be found because he took it with him.

They know nothing of the living.

Arid on his crown, he picks up the brush with his guitar fingers. Blue now, the mane keeps growing, or could it be the skin drying out?

You find laps that sheltered you and the same bosoms nursed you, although he eats from the dish of lentils and what must be eaten unsalted.

You picked out mother’s dress. It was black.

Sara Camhaji

visualize the voice of thought.
think the image of the voice.
provoke destiny. play.
from chance, from the sigh.
understand the force that links
the image to the name.
the name is an image.
the image is a verb.
play. nothing is chance.
destiny is a game.
everything is destiny.
—

This site is part of the project "DON´T TAKE PHOTOS OF THE LANDSCAPE; TAKE PORTRAITS WITH THE VIEW OF THE BACKGROUND IF YOU LIKE", whose creative object revolves around the phenomenon of memory and its conceptual visualization. Thus, Sara explores the different languages on which the mind reloads its truth and the way it constructs our inner world.
About
SARA CAMHAJI (Mexico City, 1986) is a writer, teacher, and mother. Her work is a natural response to her lived experience and the emotional dimensions she has inhabited. She has told and written stories for her entire life. Poetry—the axis of her exploration—has prompted her to develop new discursive forms in close contact with inner human reality; wrenching, they open themselves to embodiment and appropriation. She has a master’s in creative writing, two children, and two published works: Maleza (Alboroto Ediciones, 2022) and this one. A selection of her poems appeared in the UNAM’s Periódico de Poesía. She received a grant from Asylum Arts in 2017 and was awarded the Peleh Fund arts residency in Berkeley, California, for 2023. Narrated poetry or poetic narrative? Sara writes in the voice of an archive with a voice of its own, like a thinking time machine, or from the dark sincerity of she-who-didn’t-know-she-had-to-live.
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